I'll probably sound like a complete jackass with this but here it goes..

After reading your first few posts, you've got no idea how close I was to PM'ing you so I can send money to help you in your situation. Then reading that you've got financial support from both parents yet are choosing not to do so, changes my perspective. Here we have a horrible disease people want to defeat and pray daily to get past and you are seemily choosing to die. You're a grown [BLEEP] man and I can't make you change your mind. But with 2 sets of parents that you apparently keep close to your heart, children, as another poster pointed out, and possibly grandchildren, seems pretty selfish to not take the monies offered by the parents. Suck up the pride.. you're now not living just for yourself. You've got 2 sets of parents (that will be devastated seeing their kid go before them) a wife and children and possibly grandchildren losing you. People that love you, depend on you, look forward to seeing you, etc. If you can be a long term Jag fan, then you should be used to the pain, especially with what you're dealing with. So, suck up the pride and take the money to pay for you're medical expenses. Repay them with your love. Because, they're offering it with the same. To me, it takes a weak man not to accept what is being offered to you. Keep fighting. Be the old fart with the stories to tell about how you kicked cancer in the [BLEEP].

With that, love ya man. Best of luck.

Ps. Look forward to you beating this and posting about how glad you were that you did.

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