Hey all, two things. First and foremost I just found out someone I know, my neighbor, committed suicide. We're not sure when he did it, but it's been at least several days because apparently what the fire and police departments found in his house was pretty bad. They were at his house last night past 1am and will surely be back today. He was a good guy, but troubled. His own father killed himself right in front of him when he was a teenager. His sisters go to my church and I just am so sad for them. There was a time when I would have talked [BLEEP] about someone who would do this but that was before I tried to back in 2007. The desperation and hopelessness you feel when you think that is the only way out is powerful and tragic. Now that I know that feeling because I've been there, it makes me feel compassion for someone who is there. So this is hard for me because it does bring back some memories. 

 

Which brings me to my second thing. I'm having some issues stemming from my recent surgery that are pretty bad. Very emotional and some depression and such which are all apparently normal, but for someone who has the anxiety and depression issues I have anyway.....it can be quite scary. There are days I can't leave the house lest I have an emotional breakdown or a rage incident (don't you just LOVE anger issues?). I am assured this will even out over time, it's my body getting used to things. Of course, hearing news like I just did isn't helpful in my current state of mind so I'm asking for your thoughts and prayers. For Jimmy's family during their grief, and for me as I deal with my own issues anyway and now this. 

 

Thank you so very much.

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