Quote:This makes me so sad, Dakota. I am so sorry you're going through this. You're in my prayers. 

 

And you're right about the state of healthcare. Friends of mine had their premiums go up 1000% from last year and they were on one of the exchanges. Needless to say they had to drop it. Others I know are getting treated the same as you but for different conditions. My husband's uncle was just diagnosed with colon cancer last week and they're already wondering how treatment is going to go because they've heard stories like yours and others.  

I take only 40% of the meds I should because those are the cheaper ones I can afford. I cut my pain meds in half and try to be thankful that I'm not hurting as bad as I was. Look no farther than this board. Not long ago I was loved and friends with just about all. Now I am a mean, angry son of a ______. That's what months of pain end on end do to you. I know that, and it bothers me. People I used to call friends here have nothing to do with me. Real life isn't much different. I tend to stay away from people because I am usually in great pain and mean, mean, mean. I don't want to be. I just am.

 

Look, I don't know if things would be different had the ACA never happened. I just know that a lot of days I would prefer amputation or death to some of what I deal with. I am just sick of hearing how everything is so "fixed" when I am still so broken, and cannot even find the comfort of pain relief.

 

It is what it is. Cliche', I know, but I don't know what else to say.

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