Quote:I take only 40% of the meds I should because those are the cheaper ones I can afford. I cut my pain meds in half and try to be thankful that I'm not hurting as bad as I was. Look no farther than this board. Not long ago I was loved and friends with just about all. Now I am a mean, angry son of a ______. That's what months of pain end on end do to you. I know that, and it bothers me. People I used to call friends here have nothing to do with me. Real life isn't much different. I tend to stay away from people because I am usually in great pain and mean, mean, mean. I don't want to be. I just am.

 

Look, I don't know if things would be different had the ACA never happened. I just know that a lot of days I would prefer amputation or death to some of what I deal with. I am just sick of hearing how everything is so "fixed" when I am still so broken, and cannot even find the comfort of pain relief.

 

It is what it is. Cliche', I know, but I don't know what else to say.