Cat Bells/Mike.  Thank you both for your thoughts and suggestions.  It is appreciated.  I don’t want to make this thread about me.  So I’ll attempt to acknowledge both in a very abridged fashion. 

Mike, I’ve tried NA.  Doesn’t work.  Psyc, not happening.  Don’t need anything disqualifying myself from purchasing certain items.  (I’m the happy drunk, that is if “drunk@ is what you call me)

Cat bells, I do in fact have balls.  Big balls, the biggest balls of all(ha, sorry for the Ac/dc reference). But I’d have to check the time stamp when I posted it.  It may have been balls, may have been liquid courage.  When I say I’m “sad”,  I’m not a sad individual.  Im a happy guy, drinking only makes me mad whenever the rare confrontation comes about.  Very, very few and far between.  I like to think I’m a kind and caring person.  Even when I drink.  I say I’m sad because I know my problem, yet continue to do that.  And for that reason I am sad.  Im a successful man, my wife even more than me(except my wife is not a man but a woman) and I have the sweetest, most thoughtful little girl.  Yet I still CHOOSE to drink.  That is sad!  I acknowledge my shortcomings.  I know right from wrong.  What I do is wrong.  As stated previously I pray about it daily, but also understand I am the one to make the changes.  It’s up to me.  My wife, I’ve asked her help, but she is a wife.  She gives it to me straight.  She’s a good woman despite her “helping” doesn’t exactly help.

That being said, I’ve made a conscious effort to buy less each day in order to ween  myself off. I will get headaches and get pissy whenever I go with for days on end.  Sadly, the 2 night games this year are the only two days aside from one other I only drank a couple.  Mainly to stay up to watch the darn thing since I’m used to going to bed around 930-10.  Will take some more work on my part. That’s my approach so far.  I’ve gotten to where I don’t crave it; yet buy it “in case I want/need it”.  Yet, I still open and drink all I bought.  I really do appreciate you two and thank you both. I don’t want to hijack the thread.  Any additional help, please feel free to pm me.  To you two or anyone else that has been in a similar situation. Sadly, facing 15-20 for a crime I didn’t comment and a week in jail got me off of it years ago.  A bout of anxiety got me right back to where I was.

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