Tell me about my white privilege and how I oppress you ONE. MORE. TIME. 

I swear to God..... Less than one month into this administration and I am sick and tired of the racial BS that has gone into overdrive. I have a lot less privilege than these people think. The people with true white privilege are those with money and status, neither of which I have. I just happen to be a girl born white. No privilege. Don't blame me for the color of my skin that I had NO say in and don't assume I think I'm somehow superior to you. I can assure you I don't.

If you want to blame someone for black oppression in twenty freaking twenty-one look at your own people. They're the ones killing each other, dealing drugs, hustling the streets, spreading the hate. 

You want to blame the grocery store managers for the food deserts in black neighborhoods? It's your own who are the ones who make it impossible for grocery stores (or any stores) to stay open in high crime neighborhoods when they vandalize them, steal from them, create unsafe working environments for employees, etc. 

You want to blame the city for not bringing new businesses into these same areas? Same problem. How about the parks that get locked up and kids have nowhere to play? Blame the criminals in your own neighborhood for bringing the drugs and thuggery. The tax money doesn't come to your neighborhood because its destroyed by your own people over and over again. 

When I worked for Habitat for Humanity in Jacksonville we built houses in black neighborhoods. We had many, many occasions where vandalism was an issue. The thugs didn't want black people owning their own homes because it might make them think they could rise up from the victim mindset and God forbid black people feel empowered. It got to the point we couldn't install appliances until the day before the homebuyers were to take ownership of the house because they would be stolen. Doors were stolen off their hinges. Water heaters, blinds, even whole cabinets were stolen. We had to secure air conditioning units on concrete pads with rebar bent around them to prevent theft, but they could still be made inoperable. Once we showed up to a house with feces from the on-site porta john smeared around the house. We started locking the johns and the next day they'd be tipped over. There would be people lingering a block or so away from the jobsite trying to intimidate us, the homebuyers and volunteers. People would dump their trash in the yards of new homes being built. 

Who did all of this? Not the white guy. The neighbors would tell us in confidence who the vandals were and we couldn't do anything about it for fear of putting their livelihood at risk. 

I remember going to a clothing store in the Landing and they made it a point to check receipts and general contents of bags before you walked out the door. I handed my receipt to the lady and she said I was okay to go without looking at it. She said it wasn't my color she had to worry about. And she was black. She said they had issues all the time with black girls (her words) coming in and trying to shop lift. Last Friday there was a black girl at my local Food Lion trying to shop lift some make-up. She was on her cellphone telling someone the store manager was eyeballing her and accusing her, all the while she was trying to keep the stuff from falling out of her jacket. 

The reason you get the side eye for doing nothing wrong is because others who look like you already did it. Repeatedly. It's not racism. It's criminal activity. It's guilt by association. You're own people are screwing you over. They're the ones saying you're a victim. They're the ones saying you're not good enough. They're the ones who perpetuate the mentality. 

I guarantee you 1000% not a single white baby comes out of the womb as a racist with an agenda. I remember a bible devotion I read once that said Eve never knew she lacked anything until the serpent told her so. It was a lie, of course, but the damage was done. We are taught things by people who may or may not have our best interests in mind. Those who don't have an agenda. Sadly many kids don't understand this and are for all intents and purposes brainwashed to believe things that aren't true, or may have just enough truth coming from just the right person to be "true." 

My first personal encounter with racism wasn't until around the 7th grade. I knew there were kids that didn't like each other but I didn't know it was specific to race. I didn't know I was "against black people" until a black kid told me I was. What? Imagine that. I had no idea what they were talking about, I said. People are people. I quoted Paul McCartney and Michael Jackson's song Ebony and Ivory. That didn't go over well with the kid. It was the first time I ever saw someone of color as different and it was not a good kind of different, but I've never judged a whole race of people by that kid and his attitude. 

I won't even go into how you let white progressives push this narrative. That's a whole other can of whoop [BLEEP]. It's too early in the day for any of this crap but I had to get it out.

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